Be gone, 2010!

on the 2nd last day of 2010, i reckon i should do a personal summary of my year.

this year hasnt been a fruitful year, though i have to admit some major changes were made.

first and foremost. my extended family met my bf for the first time. then. shortly after. we broke up.

my status changed from being engaged to single.

i stopped working. too shattered to do anything. and at the same time. racqueen started her divorce drama. so while being jobless. i became her 'legal consultant cum PA cum aunt agony'. as much agony as i was in, i somehow sought comfort knowing that im not the only one that's screwed up. there goes this saying, '9 out of 10 people around you will be gloating over your worries as they are happy to know someone else is far worse than they are.' not sure if im gloating over it, but i definitely benefited a lot from being by her side.

racqueen and i grew closer. so that's number three on the list. relationship with cousin became more like a sisters' bond.

four. i learnt how to prepare for my future divorce. not that im planning for it. but you know, just in case. the necessary charges to file under, necessary documentations to prepare, the the SOP proceedings. i think i cna represent myself in future if i ever need to end a marriage.

fifth on the list. brother got married. to a vietnamnese. not sure how i feel about it. mixed feelings. just wished that he's more sensible to plan ahead instead of relying on mother to be the sole provider. tsk tsk.

sixth. i began dating a number of random men. my 2010 is filled with companions. but none of which let me want them so badly to make them mine.

seventh. got myself a job. got myself rejected by boucheron. and got myself two old spinsters as my bosses. go figure.

eighth. i moved out. shifted and started my full independence. im still loving and enjoying it while also struggling to cope with the increase in expenditures.

ninth. i took up dragonboating again in my desperate attempt to stay healthy and fit. so far, it's just been 2 sessions.

tenth. hmm. realised at the end of the day. im really happier alone. love can be such a nuisance when you're the only one clapping.

last, but not least. eleventh. this one is really heart wrenching and the thought of it brings tears to my eyes. my darling companion for the past 11 years. rocher. my darling rocher left us. spare the details. my only consolation from it was. he waited till im home. and he chose to drift away in my arms. till now. i still have him in my heart. he's like constantly there with me. though i really miss playing tug-of-war with him. miss abusing him and trapping him under the sheets. i miss sleeping with my rocher. farewell rocher. farewell!

that's all for now. :) can't wait for 2011 to start. i havent had a fulfilling year for a long time...